Just venting!

This post is mainly to just vent! So i can not tell you how much i am sick of being hurt over and over again by family! So just the other day was my little sister Tayas birthday and Reed and I had gone out and bought her and my little brother a birthday present. October is birthday month in my family. So i called up my dad and asked if i could stop by and bring by my sisters birthday present. Well very rudely he said no so i asked why not, well because you are not welcome here anymore and if you call or come by anymore we are going to have to get a restraining order on you!
I can not tell you how much that broke my heart. When i moved out from there home there were some things said between my mom and I that were hurtful and ever since then i have tried every way possible to say sorry and to get my mom back and be her daughter again but clearly she wont let that happen. She told me when i moved out that she hates me and treats me the way she does because i am nancys daughter and she hates nancy so she hates me, kinda dumb and unfair, i think so!!! Anywho, i guess where I am going with this is I give up on having them as my family! I am not going to try anymore! I hate them so much! They are grumpy mean old people who need to grow a heart and learn to forgive and forget! I forgave them for every mean thing they ever did and said to me and trust me a normal everyday person could not forgive them! But I did! Any also I can not tell you how much i hate them for trying to get my four younger brothers and sisters to hate me as well! Well all I can say to them is HAHAHAHAHA You failed! You should have never EVER been given the privledge to have children! Little do they know everyone of us kids LOATH (strong word for hate!) them!
Anywho, now i need to go write them a letter and let them know my feelings about them! Im tired of being nice to them!