..... Bed rest ......

So I went back to the Doc office this morning to get my blood pressure re checked and it was still really high so they said until Monday I am on bed rest! Ugh! Not to happy about that but I guess I will live! I had so much planned this weekend! Oh well! I am going back monday to get my BP re checked hopefully it goes down beofre than. They said if I start to get any really bad headaches or stomach pains than go straight to labor and dilivery to be monitored! I hope everything is ok and gets better with all of this! Anywho, I will let ya know what happens!

I've started to Dilate!

So this morning we went in for our 36 weeks check up and doc said baby Hayden is head down, and I am dilated 1 cm. I know thats not much but still that makes me so happy! Were coming close to having our little man get here! I can't wait! Doc also said my blood pressure was really high so they checked it again right before i left and it was still super high so I have to go back in the morning to have it checked again! Ugh what a pain. Especially now that we live up in Lehi! Ugh! Oh well! Anythin to make sure our little man is ok!

A little prego update!

Well we went to the doctor on monday and she said everything with Hayden is looking great! He is measuring at 35 cm which also goes along with me being 35 weeks! 5 more to go! I can't wait to get our little man here! Doc said Hayden has started to drop! and I can tell you I can definetly feel the difference, she (the doc) said from what she was feeling his head was on my right side and his little body came up over the belly button with his feel down the left side facing towards my bladder! Alot of the time he has been resting his feet in my side. Which does not feel to good, but what can ya do. Alot of people say that the further along you are the less you will feel them because the lack of space they have in the tummy.... well that is so not true. Hayden moves just as much now than he did when he had the space to do his sumersaults. I love to watch him elbow me and kick me! Its the highlight of my day!
The mother instinct in me has already kicked in... the other day I was walking up stairs and some how slipped and feel and somehow I landed on my knees instead on my stomach but pulling my knees up to my stomach i squished my stomach quite a bit and I was so scared that i might have hurt our little baby boy! So sat on the couch and laid back because normally when i do that Hayden gets really active but I was not getting any movements from him so I started to cry a little bit and I called up Reed at work and he had to resurre me that the baby was just resting and everything was ok! Dumb I know but I really worry about him! I love him so much! And Reed and I are both stoked to be parents! It will be dificult but I know we will be able to do it!
I will post a belly picture soon!

Just venting!

This post is mainly to just vent! So i can not tell you how much i am sick of being hurt over and over again by family! So just the other day was my little sister Tayas birthday and Reed and I had gone out and bought her and my little brother a birthday present. October is birthday month in my family. So i called up my dad and asked if i could stop by and bring by my sisters birthday present. Well very rudely he said no so i asked why not, well because you are not welcome here anymore and if you call or come by anymore we are going to have to get a restraining order on you!
I can not tell you how much that broke my heart. When i moved out from there home there were some things said between my mom and I that were hurtful and ever since then i have tried every way possible to say sorry and to get my mom back and be her daughter again but clearly she wont let that happen. She told me when i moved out that she hates me and treats me the way she does because i am nancys daughter and she hates nancy so she hates me, kinda dumb and unfair, i think so!!! Anywho, i guess where I am going with this is I give up on having them as my family! I am not going to try anymore! I hate them so much! They are grumpy mean old people who need to grow a heart and learn to forgive and forget! I forgave them for every mean thing they ever did and said to me and trust me a normal everyday person could not forgive them! But I did! Any also I can not tell you how much i hate them for trying to get my four younger brothers and sisters to hate me as well! Well all I can say to them is HAHAHAHAHA You failed! You should have never EVER been given the privledge to have children! Little do they know everyone of us kids LOATH (strong word for hate!) them!
Anywho, now i need to go write them a letter and let them know my feelings about them! Im tired of being nice to them!